one year.

sean and i were married on Friday, March 13th 2009.

normally, we would be celebrating our one year anniversary,

on March 13th 2010. normally.

Sean and I went to the Zermatt Resort for the first

night of our honeymoon. then we went to Vegas for the rest.

normally, we would go back to Vegas for our anniversary. normally.

but this year?

sean decided to go with out me..

for the march basketball tournaments.

it's fine. really it is. apparently when we got engaged,

he warned me that this was going to be an issue.

he didn't warn me that it would be an

issue, every year. for the rest of our lives.

or maybe he did?

but i probably wasn't listening or something.

a few months ago...he asked me if he could go.

to vegas. on our anniversary.

i laughed it off and said,

"Yeah. sure. you go ahead and do that."

really not thinking that he would.

so he went right ahead and booked the trip.

it's my own fault really.

i thought he would know better.

when i found out he booked it.

i asked if i could come along.

he said, "chloe, you will probably just be all alone sitting

in the hotel room. all by yourself. all you really could

do is sleep and shop by yourself."

um. that sounds like the best vacation in the world to me..

but needless to say i will not be going.

and i guess the normal thing would be to

celebrate your anniversary..on your anniversary.

but we have never really been that normal.

so it is fine with me.

 we are celebrating this weekend up at sundance.

and i am so very excited to just get away with sean.

we have no plans really. there is no cable or internet at

the a- frame cabin we are staying at.

it is snowing like crazy.

sean and i went up to this cabin before we got

engaged. we spent the night there..

don't worry..there were other people.

but it was one of the nights that i think i fell

in love with him. i can't say that there was one

specific moment, like sean can.

he fell in love with me on October 31st 2008.

we were at a halloween party. he looked over at me..

he says the whole room went quiet. just like in the movies.

yes. he really said that. cheesy eh?

but it's sean, so i let it go..

but anyway..he said that was the moment he knew

 he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me.

but i think i fell in love with him at this cabin.

we talked all night and it was awesome.

then one day we just decided to get married.

it was really weird because when we first started dating..

we were like.. "i'm not getting married for at least a year or two.."

then one day sean said to me,

"where do you see yourself in a year?"

and i said, " i dunno.. i used to be able to answer that.

doing the same thing i am doing right now.

living at home.. maybe going to school.

but now i don't know."

sean said, "yeah same. do you see it with me?"

i was like, "yeah.. i could probably see that."

sean was all, "sweet. me too."

that was it.

it was like in the movie stepbrothers.

when one says to the other.

"did we just become best friends?"

"yep."

and then we went and practiced karate in the garage.

no, we didn't really. but i wish we would have.

then we went ring shopping the next day.

it wasn't planned either. we just walked into the mall..

and we were going to look for other things..

but we just stopped there first.

we didn't even have to say anything.

that is the crazy thing about our relationship.

we were never really like,

"hey. do you love me?

or..

"hey, should we get married?"

or

"should we go ring shopping?"

it all just happened..

we didn't date for long.

we never thought we would be the couple

that got married that soon. but to be honest?

we never really even questioned it.

i look back now and think..

wow.. have we really been married for a year?

did we even date?

do i even know you?

you sure it's been a year?

but..it all just happened.

it made sense.

it still make sense.

neither of us have ever really thought about it.

it almost seems like a dream to me.

but i have some pretty crazy dreams..

and to be honest?

this is the only one that ever made sense.

i love you sean!

happy "one week before our real anniversary" anniversary!

i lost all the pics from my honeymoon and wedding posts..

(in the blogging disaster of 2010)

so i only added a few on..

maybe someday i will add more!

anyway.. we will be gone all weekend...

with no internet..or cable.

and it is snowing like crazy!

i am so excited!

hope you all have a fun weekend!!

{i am partly writing this now because i am pretty lazy and trying to

be more productive at life but also  because i plan on having A LOT

of fun while sean is gone..

and probably won't have time to be getting around to

it sean, since i won't be missing you at all...

and i will be doing lots of really awesome, fun, cool stuff

that you are going to be so jealous of. just so you know.

hahahah.}