i don't have too many happy things to offer you in this post. except this picture, i currently still want one as we speak. i am determined to get one as soon as possible. i mean who wouldn't want a puppy that looks adorable all curled up inside a tire? if you don't, don't say it on this blog. :)
i can't blog when i don't feel like it. i am too spontaneous of a person. i have not even had a desire to check my email really. i am sorry that i haven't been commenting on many peoples blogs. after that whole blogging disaster, i thought if i had a week off i would be inspired again, and have so much to say. but i was wrong. don't get me wrong, i could find things to talk about. for sure. i mean i have done a lot of stupid/awesome things this past week and have no problem sharing them with the whole entire world. i guess i just don't feel like it.
there are a few people in my life right now that are making decisions that i don't fully support. i am trying to, but i can't stand watching them do this to themselves. i know i am not one to talk. i have made some pretty stupid decisions in my day. i hung around a lot of people who treated me like crap. and i tried to change for them. i tried to accomodate. and then one day i decided not to anymore. and i redeemed myself. it was not easy. it was the scariest, hardest thing that i ever did. and some of those people didn't want me to move on. they even tried to keep me hanging on, while they had given other people the impression that they were the ones who had moved on.
it got to the point where i had to move away. but that didn't work. they still wouldn't leave me alone. i actually changed my phone number and email address just so that certain people would let me let go. it was one of the best decisions that i have ever made in my life. besides marrying sean. can i tell you how invigorating that was?
i guess my point is this. i didn't settle. i hate watching people settle. i hate supporting that and telling them that i think it's okay. i hated hearing that when i was going through what i went through. but when i finally stopped settling? it all made sense. i am grateful for those people who had the courage to tell me the truth to my face. i am grateful that i was open enough to finally hear it, believe it, and do something about it.
i know this post sounds depressing.. ha. i am sorry. but i have never been one to sugarcoat my feelings if you know what i mean. i guess all that i have to say today is don't settle. stay tuned eventually for a hopefully much more exciting, fun, interesting post....when i feel like it, that is.
P.S. i have PMS if you haven't noticed. the P stands for Present. although it is for sure a sucky present if you ask me. EFF YOU MOTHER NATURE.
