Friday, March 25, 2011

thank you!

so.. i don't really know how to post after a post like my last one. what do i say now? i asked sean to maybe write a funny post, or something to sort of take the attention away from that one but doesn't look like he got around to it.

oh well! first off... huge thank you. to all of you. wow. i can't even express how lucky that i am to have such incredible friends and family. all of your comments meant so much to me. and like i said, i wasn't looking for attention or sympathy, but you helped me so much. it is so nice to know that i am not alone. i'm not crazy for feeling this way. i think anyone can start feeling that way, but i was talking with a friend and i think that when we are younger, we think that our 20's will be easy. it seems like life will be somewhat figured out by then. but when you are in your 20's and reality sinks in that you aren't what you thought you were going to be? it's scary. i am sure it will be like that at every age though. and i need to realize that it's okay. life will go on and it can still be fun. what fun would it be if we already had it all figured out?

it was scary posting my feelings like that. but it was worth it. i got a lot of great advice and tips from people. so thank you. from the bottom of my heart. i hope you all know that i love you all and appreciate your kind comments, emails, phone calls, and texts. i truly believe that people were put in our lives for a reason. and all of you guys mean a whole lot to me :) you all sure now how to make a girl feel special! i just want you to all know that i am doing just fine. i mean i can't lie and say everything is perfect. but i am feeling more stable these last few days and i owe so much of that to you guys.

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so i am obviously in need of making some changes in my life. in every aspect. emotionally, spiritually, physically.. etc. remember that one time when i wanted to cancel christmas? because i bought sean and gym pass for christmas? and it was supposed to be a surprise but the gym mailed him a welcome letter the week before christmas even though i asked them not to? anyway, yeah that was lame. but anyways. sean does not have enough time in the day to do anything besides school, work, and homework. finding time to go to the gym is nearly impossible. we decided that it might be good to transfer his pass into my name. so i just barely finished doing that. wahoo! now i can start finally training for my treacherous 5K... that is in like a month. haha. oops. oh well. i have started playing indoor soccer on saturdays, and i am going to be on 2 softball teams starting in just a couple of weeks. so i think it will be really good for me to get out and be active. burn off the muddie buddies i have for every meal some stress and energy. ha, i know i promised i would never get a pass again. i used to have one and pretty much i paid $500 for a key chain. to make it look like i worked out. i think it helped though. it made me feel like i worked out even if i didn't. i still have that key chain on my keys. now i can get another one so it will look like i am even more ambitious.

this weekend my cousin jenessa is getting married! she got engaged in january and she was planning to get married in july. well her family lives out of the state and since her brother was planning to get married here in utah in june, it kind of ended up being too much going on in a short time period. so a few weeks ago her family was able to find out they could come out here in march. so they moved the wedding up and planned it in like 3 weeks! can you say stressful? but so awesome. i wish i would have done that in a way :) anyway, she is getting married tomorrow and i made her a few hairpieces to choose from. i hope she likes them! i can't wait to see her get married and see all my cousins!

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anyway, once again. thank you all so much. i love you. all of you. i am going to make a huge effort around here to be a lot more positive. of course i will still vent and whine if i want. but i want to have fun and be happier..so i am going to try and post more about things i find and things that make me happy. maybe they will brighten your day too!

with that said. here is my happiness of the day for friday! check it out here! thanks maddie for showing me the link! :) i think i am starting to get puppy hungry again...

happy friday everyone! hope you all have a great weekend!

19 comments:

Krysten @ After 'I Do' said...

Well if you ever need to vent you know we'll be here to listen... er... read.

And I SO wish I could have planned my wedding in 3 weeks and been done with it. Soooooo much less drama!

Stacey said...

Way to go, training at the gym! You can totally conquer that 5K!

The Socialite said...

Thanks for always being so honest. You're definitely not alone and you're definitely a lot more stronger than you give yourself credit! ;)

Happy Friday!

French Lover said...

This is very inspirational and I truly admire you for putting it out there. You are a brave woman. I hope the changes you make bring you strength and happiness :)
Bisous !

Emily said...

i loved that last post (and this one too!) if you and i went out to lunch i have a feeling we could talk for hours and hours. you are in good company. :) also, i never work out because i'm soo so lazy and i remember thinking about putting jon's golds gym keychain thing on my keys so i'd look cool. he didn't go for it- apparently he used it to get into the gym or something? whatever.

mama boss said...

:) this post made me smile.
And those hair pieces are gorgeous! :)

Maddie said...

HAHA, Emily, your comment made me laugh. Chloe, I'm happy you're feeling a bit better :) Sports will be good for us, we've been all hibernate-y and depress-y lately. I think the warm summer and a bit o' exercise is just the ticket. P.S. if you start going to the gym, it will just make us all look bad. Do you really want that on your conscience?

Annie Kennedy said...

Those flowers are gorgeous!!! L-O-V-E them!!!

Kelsey @ Seattle Smith's said...

I think honesty like this makes it all most real on the crazy blog.osphere!

Vanisha Mishra-Vakaoti said...

Glad you're in better spirits Chloe! :) I planned my wedding in a matter of weeks and the blessing for the wedding in a matter of days! Yikes! I'm also really loving your Wedding Post Challenge :) Have a beautiful weekend!

Diana Smith said...

Those hair pieces are sooo cute!

The Lewicutt's est 2006 said...

You are SO talented!!! Gorgeous pieces!

kitkat said...

This is such a pretty blog and i'm sure i'll enjoy reaading your posts. the hair piece u made for ur fiend is so pretty! she'll definitely love it :)

whimsy said...

such pretty flowers! and i love the blog re-do. looks amazing...just like you! you are amazing! and ps, i do think you are positive and you really are not as bad as you think you are...dont be so hard on yourself love.
loves!
britt

Rhianne said...

hang on, you made those?! They are beautiful!! Wow!

Glad posting it helped and that you felt less alone :) x

samnhal said...

Those hair pieces are awesome. I'm excited to see pictures from the wedding, I'm weird and love seeing wedding pictures. That's awesome that you got yourself involved with a lot of things. I'm slowly getting there. I have a pass for yoga and zumba, and I've barely gone...Maybe I'll start it this Thursday. Good luck with your 5k. P.S. This post made me want muddie buddies.

grant + brittany said...

so i've been MIA for a long time... i just opened up my google reader and had like 28 new posts from this sweet little blog. i mostly skimmed over the wedding stuff, admired all the pictures and then came to your "just being honest" post where i read every word.

we've talked a lot about this kind of stuff and we relate on so many levels. the whole time i was reading your words, i kept thinking "oh sweet chloe get out of this damn dump because you are like an angel" however i do want to reassure you that i understood your feelings 100%. i thought... is this how people feel when i vent? because after everything i've ever thought about you, read about you or saw about you, i have never once thought one bad thing. and that is the honest truth. i do believe that we are all our own worst critics and my only advice for you is not much (since i'm still trying to figure out how to stay out of those horrible dumps) is to try as much as you possibly can to see yourself the way that your loved ones see you (or christ, the best one). how sean sees you. or your beautiful mom or even me! you have so many qualities that come to you so naturally. honestly, i am honored to be your friend. i really just love you to pieces.

amen.

grant + brittany said...

oh and i loved your answer about marriage and the 2nd year. couldn't agree more. :)

grant + brittany said...

oh and i didn't know that we practically had the same wedding colors. that really rich deep purple. so perfect for the colder months. ya know!?