Monday, July 6, 2009


If you read the above post, you can see I have a problem. So here is the dealio.
I am reaching out publicly for support. This problem keeps me up at nights. I dream about it. When I am not dreaming I am thinking about it. This problem tempts me.. to the point where I cannot think about anything else but indulging myself in this. This problem leaves me sick and grumpy, and full of regret. This problem is ruining my teeth, my stomach, and my bank account. But this problem also makes me very happy. It lifts my spirits after a hard day at work. It makes road trips and movies more fun. This problem is CANDY!(including but not limited to: Sweets,cookies, rice krispy treats, ice cream, anything chocolate!)

There I said it. I am an addict. I really am. Lots of people are addicted to drugs, alcohol, pornography, and food. I am seriously addicted to candy. It is taking over my life. It is making me sick. The more I try to avoid it, the more I want it. I set a goal yesterday, that I am kicking this addiction. The only way for me to do it is cold turkey. I have tried to cut back. I have tried to just not buy it anymore. But it doesn't work. I know some of you are saying, "Well, we all like candy and probably have a little too much." but I eat candy at every meal. I would rather eat candy over anything else. Somedays all I eat is candy. I am tired of feeling like crap because of it. I am probably going to be the type of mom who makes her kids go trick or treating just so she can take their candy. What have I become?? So that is it. So this week I am officially starting this challenge to myself, and anyone else who feels like they want to join me! It is going to very hard because I am going to California on Wedensday and I want nothing more than to pig out on candy the whole way there. But I am not going to do it. Hopefully I will find healther things to eat since I can't eat candy. I dont know how long I am going to do this for. I am just going to see how long I can do it. I think that it finally hit me this weekend at the 4th of July Parade in Torrey. I was seriously cutting in front of kids to get the good candy. Before we had even left the parade my purse was full of candy wrappers. Then at the gas station later that night I saw a new candy bar called the "Thingamajig" it is related to the "Watchamacallit" I looked at it AFTER I had bought my Diet Dr.Pepper (Oh my that is a whole other addiction). The cashier saw me looking at it and said "Ohh, have you tried that yet? It is sooo good!" SOLD. I pulled out my .85 cents and left with it. It tasted just like Chex Muddy Buddies. SOO good. After that I realized how impulsive I am and need to stop!! Everywhere I go I want to buy or try a new treat. In Australia, EVERYWHERE we went I bought a different candy. I have problems. I told someone the other day that I had 1o cavities at one time, and they said "Oh you were probably little and they were baby teeth right?" Umm.. No I was 21..... yeah... So anyway. Back to the goal. If anyone would like to join me, let me know! We can get through this together! Along with no candy, I am cutting out any desserts. No ice cream, brownies, cookies, and cake. I struggle with these just as much if not more. I am not cutting out DDP though. I mean seriously I would die. I am not doing this to lose weight, and this is not permanent. I just want to feel better. I want to know I am putting good things in my body. Not junk. Once I feel like I have things under control, I will slowly start eating it again. But hopefully it wont be a craving anymore. Just something I enjoy every once in a while. Who's with me??

1 comment:

Lee S. said...

I'm with ya! I vow not to even coax you to try chocolate coated cereal. ha ha.