miracles.

first off, i want to thank sean for the sweet post below. i had no idea that he was going to post anything. it was honestly the greatest surprise that he could have given me. it was really sweet. i am so blessed and lucky, and even though sean and i tease each other A LOT. it is all in good fun. i love you sean! so much!

so it has been a pretty busy week. i have been a little emotional. on tuesday we received the news that one of my grandma's has cancer. the prognosis is not good. combined with the fact that this was very sudden and unexpected news, i was a bit taken back. in a way it was kind of a wake up call for me.

i guess i get comfortable with life. i often take things for granted, and forget that sometimes things can change in an instant. the other night, i was trying to go to sleep while sean was snoring next to me. i couldn't fall asleep and i couldn't turn my brain off.

i basically summed it all up to this. i am at the stage in my life where i don't know if i should hold on to my youth and try to hold on to the things in my past and the things that feel comfortable to me.. or should i take that step and grow up? walk out into the scary and unknown?

we hear so many conflicting things in this world.

"life is short."

"you have the rest of your lives for that."

"enjoy being young while you can."

"kids can come later."

"you need to finish school."

"don't you want to be a young mom though?"

"there is no going back."

"don't take the things you have or can have for granted."

what are we supposed to do?
this probably makes sense to no one but me.
but oh well.

no, i am not planning to have kids anytime soon. and i am not only referring to that. but i feel like i am stuck at a crossroads. i'm enjoying being selfish right now. i like only having to worry about sean and myself. but then i think, wait. life is short. things could change in an instant. should i be okay with how my life is right now? should we have kids soon rather than later, so we can spend as much time with them on this earth as possible? should we try and by a house? should i go back and finish school? i keep saying, "oh, i'll do that later. i have the rest of my life for that."

but i don't. things can be taken away in an instant. i was really touched by this family's blog. this woman lives in my hometown. she left her children in the tub and ran to grab something for just a split second and her life was completely turned around. her life changed in one instant. and through the power of prayer and kindness of strangers, miracles happened.

as quickly as life can change for the worse, it can be saved by a miracle. my attempts this year (since i don't make goals..haha) are to try and take less things for granted.  i have the best family, a great job, and the most amazing husband. i need to remember that. small miracles happen everyday. me getting out of bed every morning? a miracle. me making sean dinner? a miracle.

i urge you to read her story if you haven't. she is an incredible writer, and she tells this story from her pure and honest heart. in detail. i spent hours reading her blog. and was so happy with the way it ended.

all i know is this..

life is short. it's important to remember the past.

live in the moment. and look forward to the future. 

don't get stuck in one place.

you shouldn't waste your time spending it with those who bring you down.

spend it with those who make you want to be a better person.

spend it with those who will stay up way past their bedtime with you,

even if it is 10:00 and they want to go to bed.. 

just because they know you don't want to be alone.

spend it with someone who sends you 

pictures of baby elephants through out the day, 

because they know you love them.

spend it with someone who will clean the dirty bathroom for you..

 even pulling your hair out of the drain...

 because it frightens you. 

spend it with someone who will refrain from vacuuming 

on saturday morning because they know you like to sleep in.

and it makes you feel guilty while they are being productive

and you are sleeping.

spend it with someone who tries to give you the bigger piece of bread. 

even though you tried to give them the bigger one.

 and then you fight about it.

those are the kinds of things you should fight about.

i guess the rest will all work it self out in it's own time. 

at least that is what i keep telling myself...

i know i don't say it enough on here. but i am so grateful for everyone that reads this blog. whether you comment or not, i think you are all amazing. i never expected anyone to care about the life of sean and chloe. we are crazy. we are random. we can be a little bit annoying at times. but we love each other. and as cheesy as that is? it's all that really matters to me. i have been so overwhelmed (in a good way) with all of the sweet friends we have made through this blog. i am sorry if i don't always comment back. but i love reading all of your blogs. thanks for being you, and for letting us be who we are. there have been times after mean comments, that i just want to quit blogging. or fake how i am feeling. change some posts, or edit or take out things i want to say. but i won't. because i don't want to look back on our life and our little blog and have it be something that it wasn't. so thanks for letting us be us. we love you all!

sorry, i know this wasn't like our typical posts, but it hasn't been a typical week. we're just goin' with the flow :) 

p.s. it's almost friday! YESSS!!! does anyone have any fun plans?