we need to talk.

dear blog,

i am really upset with you right now. but mostly myself. i wish that i would have known that if i deleted my old google profile, (that i uploaded all of my pictures on), that almost every picture on my blog would go away. i wish you would have told me that. i feel like you let me down. but most of all, i let myself down.

i wish you could have at least kept up my honeymoon, wedding, and trip to jackson hole pictures. i worked so hard on you. every time i think that you are fixed, and things are going to be fine, more pictures just keep disappearing. why you gotta do me like you do? you have caused me way too much stress these past 2 days. i seriously regret even attempting to move to a new email. i wish that i wouldn't have spent so much time on you, and posted almost 300 posts.

today i tried to fix you. i spent hours just trying to find pictures to fix some of the posts. sure, you look okay in the first few posts, even the first page or 2, but that is just a facade. you are a blog of lies, and it sickens me.

i especially wish that i wouldn't have tried to "clean up and organize my life" before deleting the profile, because i deleted most of my pictures, assuming they were all "safe on the blog".  no. they are not safe. nothing is safe anymore. i thought we really had something. but i guess i thought wrong. no matter what i do? it is never enough.

i think what upsets me most of all, is the fact that this really upsets me. boo. i invested way too much time into you, and in the end? yuckiness. i think the best thing for me to do right now is to take a break. i don't know how long. but i am going on a blogging hiatus until further notice. please, get yourself checked.

Chloe

P.S. what did i learn from this?

well, apparently when you create a blog, you automatically get a picasa account with google. so all your pictures are linked onto that. not your actual blog. so if you delete the account that you uploaded your pictures to blogger with? they will die. just like my soul.

also? never try to simplify your life. it will just make it more complicated. just go with the flow. set your expectations low, and be happy. that is all.

oh and i really am taking a break. if you don't see me comment for a while, i am so sorry! i just need to not worry so much about this blog. i am acting like i lost a puppy or something and that is kind of sad. i love you all though, and if you need to contact me in the meantime, my email is chloeroseashby@gmail.com. i will be back when i feel ready! over and out!

(yes, i am aware i am being totally dramatic. but i feel like i lost my scrapbook in a fire or something. i need some time to recover from the blogging disaster of 2010. where do i go from here? do i create a new blog? delete all my old pictureless posts? attempt to find as many pictures off of facebook as i can? what should i do? it took me all day just to fix the first page of posts so that it at least looked presentable. help me blog gods, please.)

P.S.S.

dear t.v.,

we are going to become very good friends again. i have missed you.

(on a side note, i am petitioning to have it made common that men will change their last name to their wives last name when they get married. they don't have blogs and crap. they can handle the changes easier. us women are not emotionally capable of dealing with all this stress. i've said it before here, and i will say it again. sean should be Sean Thomas right now and this whole issue would have been avoided.)