Tuesday, January 26, 2010

we need to talk.

dear blog,

i am really upset with you right now. but mostly myself. i wish that i would have known that if i deleted my old google profile, (that i uploaded all of my pictures on), that almost every picture on my blog would go away. i wish you would have told me that. i feel like you let me down. but most of all, i let myself down.

i wish you could have at least kept up my honeymoon, wedding, and trip to jackson hole pictures. i worked so hard on you. every time i think that you are fixed, and things are going to be fine, more pictures just keep disappearing. why you gotta do me like you do? you have caused me way too much stress these past 2 days. i seriously regret even attempting to move to a new email. i wish that i wouldn't have spent so much time on you, and posted almost 300 posts.

today i tried to fix you. i spent hours just trying to find pictures to fix some of the posts. sure, you look okay in the first few posts, even the first page or 2, but that is just a facade. you are a blog of lies, and it sickens me.

i especially wish that i wouldn't have tried to "clean up and organize my life" before deleting the profile, because i deleted most of my pictures, assuming they were all "safe on the blog".  no. they are not safe. nothing is safe anymore. i thought we really had something. but i guess i thought wrong. no matter what i do? it is never enough.

i think what upsets me most of all, is the fact that this really upsets me. boo. i invested way too much time into you, and in the end? yuckiness. i think the best thing for me to do right now is to take a break. i don't know how long. but i am going on a blogging hiatus until further notice. please, get yourself checked.

Chloe

P.S. what did i learn from this?

well, apparently when you create a blog, you automatically get a picasa account with google. so all your pictures are linked onto that. not your actual blog. so if you delete the account that you uploaded your pictures to blogger with? they will die. just like my soul.

also? never try to simplify your life. it will just make it more complicated. just go with the flow. set your expectations low, and be happy. that is all.

oh and i really am taking a break. if you don't see me comment for a while, i am so sorry! i just need to not worry so much about this blog. i am acting like i lost a puppy or something and that is kind of sad. i love you all though, and if you need to contact me in the meantime, my email is chloeroseashby@gmail.com. i will be back when i feel ready! over and out!

(yes, i am aware i am being totally dramatic. but i feel like i lost my scrapbook in a fire or something. i need some time to recover from the blogging disaster of 2010. where do i go from here? do i create a new blog? delete all my old pictureless posts? attempt to find as many pictures off of facebook as i can? what should i do? it took me all day just to fix the first page of posts so that it at least looked presentable. help me blog gods, please.)

P.S.S.

dear t.v.,

we are going to become very good friends again. i have missed you.

(on a side note, i am petitioning to have it made common that men will change their last name to their wives last name when they get married. they don't have blogs and crap. they can handle the changes easier. us women are not emotionally capable of dealing with all this stress. i've said it before here, and i will say it again. sean should be Sean Thomas right now and this whole issue would have been avoided.)

42 comments:

Michelle said...

Oh no! That's terrible! I can't believe all your pictures got deleted! I thought the same, that the pictures would be safe on the the blog!

It must be really upsetting seeing all that effort you put into your posts vanish! GRRRRR let's get them, whoever they are! I don't think that you are being dramatic at all, I would totally be freaking out. And totally not in the mood to blog.

Will miss your posts, but I totally understand how you feel!

Maddie said...

i'm so sorry chloe :( i really feel terrible for you. don't worry, 2010 will hold so many fun, great memories! there are more pictures to be taken and adventures to be had! :)

Allison said...

I'm so sorry! That's HORRIBLE. I bet you feel like Jo in Little Women when Amy through her book that she had spend YEARS working on into the fire. That is just TERRIBLE, seriously.

Please send a complaint over to Google Headquarters- because your blog was, and you ARE, AMAZING.

We're gonna miss your while you're gone!

xoxoKrysten said...

Oh my gosh Chloe, I very nearly did the SAME.EXACT.THING today! And the only thing that stopped me is that I went back to re-read it to find out if I'd have to re-follow all the blogs I follow.

That totally stinks. Sorry hon!

The Boob Nazi said...

Oh, I'm sorry Chloe! That is terrible!!!!

Caroline said...

OH my... I would be just as upset!!! I am sending you something this weekend to brighten your days!!! Can you send me an email with your address!!!?? Your blog... I know you will come back and kick this google techy problems butt!!! Yeah stick it to the man.... I will miss your posts if in fact you are taking a mini blog break... I hope it's mini!! Sending you much much love!! xo

Stephanie said...

ugh. that sucks so hard. this is why i don't post pictures. actually, i dont post pictures bc i am lazy. so nevermind.

sorry that you lost your photos. are they lost forever? or just on the blog?

Michael & Mindy said...

I am seriously sad about this. BUT, I know what you mean...you are so great to read and comment on everyone's blogs, so I don't blame you for needing a break! Here is the bad news: this is not a break from me! I'm still going to comment on this post and message you and text you and probably be a way annoying friend. Unless that's the reason for your break. Then i won't. But anywya..I'm glad you're taking a break. I mean, I'm not glad, but I'm happy for you to be happy. Whatever. I'm trying to watch Biggest Loser weigh-ins so I can't focus. But I'll be back..

Tara Long said...

I am sorry. I know how you feel. And I have taken a "break" from blogging on a few occasions. Sometimes it's just what ya gotta do.

crissy said...

That sucks so bad. I'm sorry :( if I could fix it for you, I would.
I'll miss seeing you around, but I understand the need for a break. Especially after all of this. I really hope things get better. ♥

Allie Garcia said...

chloe- you are the funniest blogger in the world. even when youre pissed. i totally get why you need a break, but totally wish you didnt. you make me laugh everyday. maybe we could find a computer hacker to retrace your blog? do they sell those kind of people anywhere?

I am Stacey... said...

Sorry about the blog suckiness!

I'm totally down with the idea of making men change their last names. I mean, my old last name totally rocked. I used to be Stacey Knee. How weird and cool is that?! I don't think Josh would like to be Josh Knee, though.

my name is lauren. said...

chloe, i am so so so so sorry!

this is awful. sean should've changed his name to thomas for sure. you actually can do that if you want. i know someone who did it because he was totally estranged from his family and didn't care to carry on the name...so he took her last name that she was super proud of. unconventional, but kinda cool. my maiden name was schrader, and i told craig that we should just combine both of our last names and then BOTH change our names.... we could've been the schrartmann's. but craig vetoed that. he said he wouldn't be named something with the word "shart" in it. oh well. i tried.

i'm e-mailing you instead of commenting now. ok. bye.

Sam said...

I'm sorry :( It is so lame that your pics disappear! Yuck. And I get way into my blog sometimes too. And about your comments disappearing? I haven't seen any in a long time :( It makes me sad! I hope you still like me :)

♥ Katinka said...

I'm so so sorry Chloe. You should have aksed me. I had the same problem a long time ago. i learned from it but it sucked. I can't wait for you to be back. Plese come back soon! xoxo

*juli* said...

a very wise girl once gave me these comforting words of advice when I was going through a difficult time in my life last Tuesday. she said, "it doesn't change the fact that your girlfriend is 16." or something along those lines. I was then instructed to go watch the office. so... go watch the office. heart you!

Selma said...

oh sweet chloé...i am so incredibly sorry...this totally sucks. i totally feel ya, and would just want to give you one big hug girl. don't cry. if you cry i cry and you know i'm a weeper ;) so don't, and then we both stay strong.

consider yourself hugged girl. gonna miss your comments. :D have fun with your tv!!! :D

xoxo

lydia. said...

i'll be missing you!
come back quick. :(

grant + brittany said...

oh my gosh, i feel horrible! this SUCKS!!!!!!!!! i am so sorry. seriously. i feel so bad because i would totally get sooooooooooooo frustrated! especially with pictures disappearing! ugh! i wish i had something i could tell you to do that would magically make them re-appear. sorry chlo. i hope your little break is therapeutic :)

Andy Tan said...

Oh no this is just terrible! Not dramatic at all. you've invested so much and now its almost gone, you have the right to be angry. I will still be here though, waiting for your return.

much love,
andyquirks.blogspot.com

Randi Lee said...

Agreed, changing last names is lame. The tradition was created because marriage was seen as a woman leaving her family and joining the man's, right? (I might have made that up...) If I didn't make that up, I think it's crap! I'm not leaving my family to join his! I'm just creaing my own... right out of thin air... if anything we should just conjoin last names. Honeycutt+Lewis= Lewicutt ... I think it's the only fair way to go about this...

knz said...

Oh man. That sucks. I'm sorry! :(

Michele said...

Losing your pics SUCKS! I can see why you would want a break. Don't be gone to long I will miss my almost daily Chloe blog laughs. Like I have said to you before you really should look into writing a column some where. Just remember all of us little people when you are famous:)

samnhal said...

That is awful awful awful. I didn't even know that they weren't on your blog, that is the lamest thing ever. It may be a long shot, but have you tried contacting blogger and seeing if it's actually deleted forever, or if they can reinstate it? Also, boys totally should change their last names. Maybe they would get around to it quicker than most women. Plus I like the flow of my maiden name. Boo. I just procrastinate and it's all a facade that my last name is morgan on anything other than church records. One day I'll get around to it.

Chloé: said...

Blah, I'm sorry :(

Jenni said...

haha you poor dear! I suggest making a flickr account and then just putting in the <img src= html code to place photos. That way its not tied to your email account and its quicker and easier than uploading photos through blogger! Miss you! Don't take too long of a break dear!

Elizabeth Marie said...

Chloe! Oh no! I am almost crying for you. UGH GOOGLE YOU SLAY ME.

I'll miss you. Come back soon.

JoJo and Ralph said...

Thank you for sharing this little tidbit of information with me. This is SO something I would do. I will be ridiculously cautious about this as I am a technidiot and I jack things up daily. I am sorry it happened to you, but I have confidence in you that you will recover it all eventually.

Crazy Shenanigans said...

Aw! I'm sorry that you lost all of your pictures! That would suck and not be fun. At least now you know and won't make the same mistake.

JMay said...

Chloe! I'm so so sorry, that's so sad :-(

Will miss you in the blogging world!

P.S. Lost is on next week but if you're a fan, I know that will cheer you up.

I wish I could send you the cupcakes I just made to cheer you up!

xo.

olivia rae said...

god that's AWFUL! i cannot believe it. i'd totally be crying and freaking out and way more dramatic than you are being. don't stay away for too long!!! i depend on you for my daily laughs! kidding, take as much time as you need... love you!! xoxoxo

Little Miss Paige said...

It's my first time to your blog. It's BEAUTIFUL!

Seriously!

XOX

kelly ann said...

ohhh NO. this is awful! it just. totally. blows. i'm very sorry, i hope it all gets figured out and that you come back soon - i loooove your blog! <3

Juliana said...

I would TOTALLY flip out and then cry if that happened...but I am new to your blog and now following so everything is new to me...see--looking the the positives!

grant + brittany said...

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Allie Garcia said...

Chloe! I miss your blogs! You can come back nowwww!

MaryBeth Hughes said...

that totally sucks. a good learning for me, as i will be updating my emails/last name this fall after getting hitched. but based on your experience i may put it off for a while.

p.s. love the look of your blog -- it's beautiful!

grant + brittany said...

i miss you!!! boooo :(((((

britt said...

chloe!
im so excited were bloggy friends! and that we are in the same ward! ive seen you at church and seriously think you are the cutest! im so sorry for what happened on your blog- sooo annoying. i cant stand stuff like that. ill ask my techi computer pro bro in law if he knows of any way to revive it. so glad you found me today! yay for our newfound friendship!
loves!
britt

Elizabeth said...

This sends a shiver down my spine...but don't be gone forever please!

Jenni said...

Hey pretty lady! I might have a little something to turn that frown upside down!!! Head on over to my blog because you're a winner!

Kjrsten said...

DEAR CHLOE...
MAJJJJOR BUMMER! I feel for you. I once lost a scrapbook to a moldy garage with a leak... the pacific northwest is moldy enough without a frickin leak in your garage and then it's black mold city, and all over my scrapbook containing pictures from age 12-16... my coming of age years, my very first black and white darkroom creations, oh the sadness that still fills my heart and breaks it into a million pieces. It still hurts. Think of the joy my posterity could have had if that scrapbook were still with us today. I tried to save it but the husband knew better, it had disease written all over it in the form of black dots! RIP moldy scrapbook. R.I.P....