i guess this brings me to my question. should i ask Sean if i can buy new things? well i possibly could have, but he didn't answer his phone because he was too busy fishing and golfing and spending money too.. so i think that answers my question. i guess i should add that the reason he didn't answer his phone was because i never acually called it. but whatever, that is besides the point.
also, if the stupid person who decided who had to be feminine and what not didn't exsist.. then i probably wouldn't have bought clothes. i blame it on them. and why do we have to wear clothes? why do i feel so weird naked? maybe if no one ever invented clothes, i wouldn't have this fear. sigh i don't know. and even if i did ask Sean if i could buy clothes ( which i wouldn't, let's be real here) and he said no? i still probably would. because i am just that kind of person. sigh.
i made pumpkin chocolate chip cookies last night. they were delicious. i accidentally already ate 4 for breakfast. i am pretty sure pumpkin is healthy though. so i think i'm good. i told Sean that he can't say i have never made him anything. i like to bake.. delicious yummy treats.. for myself.
last night we had cheesecake over at my mother in laws. i offered to take the dish up stairs, and she just laughed and said that i could leave it by the stairs and she would take care of it. haha. i promise that i am not as pathetic as i make myself sound on this blog.. but i probably am. anyway, i went upstairs and washed the dish completely off, and even started scrubbing it. that's when Sean told me that they had a dishwasher and that scrubbing it clean wasn't necessary.
that is when it hit me. that is why i hate cooking and doing dishes. we don't have a dishwasher. why would i want to cook all the time, when i have to wash all of these stupid dishes by hand? and possibly cut myself on a broken dish, more than one time? life is not supposed to be this hard people.
i mean as if i don't have enough to deal with already such as:
not having TIVO, being behind on all of my shows, having to take all my clothes out of my extra drawer/dryer so that other people can do laundry, dealing with spouse having all this homework and never spending time with me, having to spend a billion dollars a month on birth control, being a girl, having a fear of being naked, trying to be a professional roller derby queen, not being able to have a puppy or a baby elephant, trying to convince people i am not pregnant (seriously? what is this crap?) commenting first on someone's facebook status and then getting 64 other reply comments in my email. having a loop hole on my new shirt break, trying to do something with my dirty gross hair today, trying to deal with a medusa/witch complex.. i mean the list goes on and on guys.
i forgot how amazing life is with a dishwasher. someday i will have one. and mark my words..i will be the best freakin' housewife in the whole world. but probably not.